Wednesday, April 23, 2008

So I've been MIA for a while...sorry...

April is a busy month for me, especially this April....Ashlyn turned 15 on the first, and My niece Sophia turned 9 yesterday...both of these are a big deal, but not quite as big as next year, when Sophia hits the double digits and Ashlyn turns 16!

My father was diagnosed with lung cancer last November and had a lobectomy in December. He completed his chemotherapy, 3 rounds of it and the CT scans show no evidence of cancer left in the remaining lobes...this is a good sign. My grandmother was diagnosed with breast cancer in February this year, she's my father's mother and she's 92 years old. She had a lumpectomy and she completed 3 weeks of radiation therapy last week.

While going through all this, the love of my life and I were planning a trip to Greece this year, we had planned to refinance the house and take out some cash to make the trip.. Due to the economy and current status of the housing market, we can't get enough cash to make the trip...this is such sad news, we were going to go to Greece to celebrate our 5th year together and maybe get married over there..we are both literally crushed over the news..

We are postponing our trip til next year, so we can save some money without refinancing, but we just had our hearts set on doing something big for our 5th year together..I am more in love with him today than ever and even though we had a rough time of it in the beginning, things are a bit easier now.

When we started dating, we had been friends since I was 13, and I was ending a disaster of a relationship at the time, we were hanging out (as friends) and a comment was made that maybe we could date each other...I wasn't ready for any kind of relationship at that time. My heart was absolutely crushed over husband #2....

Though he was a dear friend to me at the time and quite a life saver as well..I just wasn't ready to date...

He wasn't ready for the dating scene either and he was afraid that he would have to change his ways to accommodate a "love interest"....

But, he said he'd be patient and wait until I was ready to date again....I thought that was very sweet...

He knew my circumstances at the time and even if I had been over the ex, I didn't feel I had anything other than "baggage" to bring to the relationship...

I had 4 kids, no home, one car and a lot of junk!!!

I didn't even have a real job at the time...I told him that before I dated anyone, I wanted to at least have a steady income...the only way I could do that was to go back to school....

So I enrolled in a program for Respiratory Therapy...he helped me get through the first quarter of school, he helped me study on the weekends, gave me a place to stay 3 days a week and was very supportive of everything...

He kept on pushing me through...he has this way of doing things, he can't do anything half-way...its all the way or he's not doing it...that set the pace for me in school...

I'm so grateful for that...I finished school and I started working right away...

We decided to incorporate our skills/knowledge/finances and support...and we set goals for ourselves and we've achieved every one we set out to achieve...

He's so easy to get along with, he's so easy to talk to and when there's a problem, he is very quick to help solve it...

I just think this guy is amazing...I know him, I trust him and I believe in him...and he only comes second to God....

If anything ever happened to him, I would be content living alone...he's given me everything I've ever wanted in a relationship and I'm so proud of him...

Almost every need, every want, every desire I've ever had...he's fulfilled all of it...

I don't think there's another human being out there that could ever be so compatible with me...and frankly, I don't think anyone could compare to him...so I would have to be alone if he were taken from my life...

What a great guy he is...that's why I'm so heartbroken about this trip not happening this year...he even offered to take on another job just to get us there..but I couldn't let him do that, we work too much already..we're apart all the time...

maybe that's what keeps us going..who knows..but whatever it is, I love it...

I'm not giving him up for anything in this world and I can't wait until we can go to Greece..even if its not til next year...I'll wait...

I love him very much and if its meant to be, it will be...I have faith..

kT

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  1. Welcome back, keep it up your fun reading.

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